You’re not very big yet, internet tells me about the size of an apple. I don’t know your name yet because I don’t even know if you are a boy or a girl. What I do know is that I love you. I could’ve made a different decision, the timing was awful. But I couldn’t because you’re my apple. I don’t judge others for their decisions because I can’t place myself in their shoes, but you are part of me, a human being. I apologize ahead of time because life with a single mother is hard. This situation is far from ideal but I chose you and have sacrificed tremendously for you out of love. The outside world really has no idea. I will never stop fighting for you, I want you to know that. I apologize because life being raised by a single mother can be rough, just ask your brother, but were going to be ok. I said I wouldn’t do this all again, your brother is tough but full of so much love. He’s already been through some things as a result of a split household, respect him and trust him to lead you, he’s going to be the best big brother and will love and protect you like no other. You may not be coming into this world into the traditional type of family but all things aside you are pretty lucky to have a kick ass momma and brother. When you actually get to read this one day who knows where we will be, but I write this because I want you to know the love that I feel for you now even in the midst of great adversity. I fight for you now, I sacrifice for you now and that I will never stop fighting for you. See you in 24 weeks my love!
I wrote this last week when I was having a very emotional day to say the least. I debated sharing but I think the essence of this in such a difficult place for me is too beautiful not to share and I know other single mothers feel this 100%
P.E.A.C.E & Much Luv,